Do you ever wish you could reach into the mirror, grab your own lapels and give yourself a good ‘pull yourself together’ shake?
This is how I feel constantly.
I wander around in this sleep deprived half life. Stumbling from day to night to day. Resting for only an hour or two at most. Deflated, disheartened (and most likely a tad dangerous too).
My body is exhausted and my mind can barely string two coherent words together other than, “Fetch me a Diet Coke and a chocolate brownie darling.”
In short, dear reader, I’m bloody knackered.
The polarity of my emotions flips unexpectedly and without warning. The poor husband probably thinks I’ve gone doolally. He might have been called a few, ahem, choice names of late, yet takes it on his perfectly chiseled chin (grovel grovel) and loves me nonetheless…..thank goodness!
I need to shift my focus away from the people, situations and circumstances in my life that bring me down and sap my emotional strength. I am not a reptile. Cut me and I will bleed. Hurt me and I will cry.
The time has come to recharge, refuel, refocus and remember who I am, what my purpose is and what I want to achieve.
Sod the rest.
I will read a book, have a hot bath, cook a good meal, have 2 hours (gasp!) all to myself without thinking about anything, anything at all other than me and my beautiful family.
Gird your loins people. This little lady is on the up!
Now if I could just remember where I put my charger…..
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Do reptiles not bleed? I didn't know that. Enjoy your recharge time. I personally think those two hours should be just for you and not even include the family. They can have two more hours after you've enjoyed your me time.
Big hug to you!
That's a horrible feeling to have. Glad you're taking a new start. Often a refuel will do wonders.
x
Oh big hugs to you – I find that I get all touched and talked out and just need time with the door shut on the rest of the world / family from time to time
I hope you got your recharge time and are feeling better for it
There's nothing like a hot bath, a book and a good night's sleep for recharging. And LOTS of chocolate…
Good for you – hot bath and book sounds good. By the way, I regularly want to reach into that mirror and give myself a damn good slap…
I know how you feel there hunni. Take some me time relax and recharge and I hope your feeling better soon
sorry to hear that. I think we've all been there, trying to do too much, worrying about the silly things instead of teh important ones, not looking after yourself properly. Its a slippery slope.
Some time alone with a hot bath and good book should help.
Sorry to hear you're feeling so tired and fed up. I can identify with you to some extent as I'm absolutely exhausted at 37 weeks pregnant and have had a very tricky day today with both children. However, as I don't have the insomnia you have I know I'll be okay again soon (maybe when the new baby's about 5?!). It's so important to give yourself time to rest, I hope it helps. And I agree about those people and situations which drain your energy, I'm getting better at avoiding them and managing them these days. Hope you feel better soon (hugs) x
Big hugs. I bope you start to feel better once you have had some time for you. Life becomes very difficult when we are exhausted. Take some time to catch up with yourself. Be kind to yourself, you've had some tough times to get through recently. Hope you are reading that book as I write this!
I can totally relate to that. If it is any help, probably not when you are so tired, but it will pass I promise.
An award for you over at mine
My god girl you sound like you need some me time! Take it and recharge those batteries… a mummy whose not running on empty is a better mummy! And "gird your loins"!! I love that line from Devil Wears Prada… you see now Im picturing you as Meryl Streep dangerously swinging that Prada bag! Have a restful weekend x
Just wanted to say that I know the feeling!
Oh hon – HUGS many, how horrible for you to be going through all of that- I wish I could give you a proper hug instead of an internet one *hug*. Remember to cut yourself some slack, you have been through so much and you are still upright and functioning – THAT is impressive.
CIW – Reptiles are thick skinned. I am not. You are right I should take time for just me.
MWA & MAM – All hugs gratefully recieved x
NVG – S far managed a bath and had my chocolate fix but still no sleep. Sigh.
Mummmee (spelt wrong) – Still slapping myself. Too tired to feel it.
Heather – I'm gonna try!
Rosie – Not even opened a book yet. Have a pile that are yet to be touched. Must find time!
Emily – I shouldn't moan when you cope so well with 2 already and you are full term! You go rest too! xxx
AMM – I'm hoping it does pass. Damned insomnia sucks. x
GM – Thanks for the award!
TG39 – I shall attempt resting this weekend and you have inspired me th watch The Devil Wears Prada. I bloody love that film!
April – Thanks for the hug xxx
Pippa – Hehehee, thought you might. Sleepless solidarity! x