I have a lot on my mind this week. The gravity of worry and sadness seem to have taken up residence firmly on my shoulders.
The run up to Mother’s Day (Sunday 14th March 2010 in the UK) is always a tough few days for me. Usually it’d have me grieving once more for my Mum, who I lost 29 years ago, and my mother in law six years passed, but this year it also has me grieving for my lovely Grandma, who I lost last November. Not only is it the first Mother’s Day without her, but it would have been her birthday next Monday too.
This is also the last full week I have at home with both my beautiful children before I return to work on St Patrick’s Day (also my birthday). I don’t want to spend a whole week bringing the children down into the doldrums with me. I need to somehow re-order the importance of these feelings and try defying the gravity of them.
So instead of bringing you and myself down any further I’m going to share a very apt song, recently performed on one of my very TV favourite shows.
The lyrics speak for themselves.
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Your post has really hit home with me and I’ll be writing something similar later in the week.
I am also convinced that Glee was written, and the songs chosen, specifically for this time in my life. Most of it is really poignant at the moment, along with that song you’ve posted.
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I just wanted to send you my thoughs at this difficult time.
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I love this song, and it’s reminded me I need to buy the Wicked soundtrack. I have a T-Shirt that says Defying Gravity (not a reference to my boobs) too, but you have made me see so much more meaning in this song than what comes through in the musical. I wish you love and hope the pain eases for you. I too am going back to work soon, I have 2 weeks left! hugs xx
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Hey you, hang in there! I’m having a really bad week as well. This makes me feel less alone.
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I really don’t know what to say other than thank you for reminding me to take nothing and no-one for granted.
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Your mum, your grandma and your mother in law all want you to celebrate their wonderful lives. Just think how richer you are to have known them.
Hope you do manage to enjoy this week.
CJ xx
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Thinking of you xx
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((hugs)) x x x thinking of you my lovely x x x
hugs hun, stay strong!!!
I love Glee and have been lucky enough to see the musical Wicked, such a moving song.
Big kisses xxx
There really is a lot going on for you at the moment, juggling your losses while trying to prepare to return to work and the emotional wrench of leaving your children……..not for the faint hearted. Good on you for blogging about it, I hope it helps ease it a little for you. Jen.
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Wishing you strength in the sadness xx
I’m going back to work on 15th March, just two days before you.
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What a really sad time for you, must be very hard. Hope you can focus on you ‘you Mummy’ part of Mother’s Day if that’s possible.
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Hope you manage to enjoy your last week at home. Fill your days with lots of fun things to do with the little ones, maybe you could find some photos of your family and let big E help make/decorate a frame or something and take it to work when you return?
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Aw hugs sweetie, take one thing at a time.
xxx
Every so often life hits you like a ton of bricks. Thank you so much for sharing this, so many of us suffer in silence. Bigs higs to you as you try and cope with your losses while trying to get your head around returning to work.
Try and get the kids to create something you can take to work with you. Focus on the fact that you are a fantastic mother and those who you loved and lost will know it too.
Mother’s day is really tough for those of us who don’t have mums (mine died 12 years ago, and my mother in law 10 years ago). Just wanted you to know that you’re not alone; thinking of you. x
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It’s very hard being a mum, without a mum. I know. Try to celebrate your role as a mother on Sunday and I think you’re very courageous to try and be positive. I love Glee by the way. x
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